Excerpts: 4-19-41 to 4-20-41 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Wednesday April 19, 1944
We had another raid here last night, between one and two a.m. W. & H’s office received a bomb, and is completely gutted. Also Allen’s, the Brewery, The Cottons, Hale’s, Cakebreads, Neumann’s, Knightsbridge Road, Waterloo Road. Bert’s office is completely burned out. This is the fourth fire there, once through Ritchie’s fault, once through Dunne’s, and now twice from Gerry. The B.B.C. reported at eight a.m. that we brought down ten of the nights raiders, I should think at least half of them in Romford. No details yet. I shall learn more when Ted comes in for lunch.
  • Thursday April 20, 1944
A short raid last night before midnight, not bad in this neighborhood, but bad enough to be frightening. Mrs. Owlett was buried today. After the funeral, in the afternoon, Mr. Holloway’s daughter in law came to tell him of the death of his son, in Nairobi. This is a terrible blow for the old fellow. I believe it was his only child. So Miss Owlett and old Mr. Holloway have gone away for a week or two, and Miss Owlett has asked us to keep an eye on the house for them. Or course, I can’t understand this going away so promptly after a funeral, but there you are, different people act differently. If I suffered bereavement I shouldn’t want to leave the house for a long time, because if I did, it would be too hard to return to it. Then, I never care about “going away” at any time. I like best to stay on my own premises.

Excerpts: 4-24-44 to 4-30-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Monday April 24, 1944 
Joan arrived at eight o’clock this morning, for the day. Of course she was very surprised to find Artie and Hilda here. Miss Coppen the same, when she came this afternoon. It is another perfect day. The B.B.C. announces that the Government has decided that beginning next Thursday, nobody may leave Great Britain, and this is for security reasons.
  • Tuesday, April 25 1944 
The B.B.C. announces that Germany has isolated Denmark; beginning today, nobody may either leave or enter Denmark.
  • Sunday April 30, 1944 
Artie and Hilda just left for mass; Ted is out at the Home Guard, the first Sunday since his accident. I have the feeling Mother ought to walk in. The weather is perfect. The week has passed much better than I anticipated. Artie and Hilda are obviously happy to be here, Artie particularly so. I think Artie must have been very unhappy in Glasgow. Twice I have heard Hilda say to him: “You’re happy now-aren’t you? You’re happy here.” Once: “You were always grumbling in Glasgow. You grumbled about everything.”

Excerpts: 5-3-44 to 5-5-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Wednesday May 3, 1944 
Out wedding anniversary, the thirty-ninth, it was a Wednesday, too, the day we got married. My God! How long ago!
  • Thursday May 4, 1944 
Planes passed overhead incessantly all night; our planes. I thought our invasion of Europe must have begun, at last. But no, all we have been told today is that our aircraft were out over occupied territory during the night.
  • Friday May 5, 1944 
Mrs. Camus was here this morning. She tells me that Bobbie (Roberta), her youngest daughter, barely sixteen, has commenced as a probationer in a London Nursery Hospital, and that Beryl, the elder, has volunteered to do Red Cross work, in her evenings, here at Old Church Hospital. She says Old Church is absolutely empty of patients, but has increased its staff of doctors and nurses, and that many foreign doctors are there; American, Polish, Czech, etc. They are standing by waiting for invasion casualties. Beryl has been warned to prepare herself for terrible sights, men without legs, men without faces. War, damnable devilish war!

Excerpts: 5-6-44 to 5-17-44 World War ll London Blitz


  • Saturday May 6, 1944 
In the Catholic Herald of yesterday, is printed this: “An allied woman who does not wish even her nationality disclosed because the people she worked with might be arrested and put to death by the Nazi’s talked to me in London about her experiences in Hungary. She escaped there from one of the occupied countries and worked for some time in the underground movement with others of her compatriots who have escaped. Two or three months ago she managed to get to this country by way of Romania, Bulgaria and Turkey, a great deal of the journey being done on foot although she managed to travel on trains when she could board them away from the big towns. She arrived in Hungary about March, 1943, and spent seven months there.” (Then there are a couple of columns about what she saw, etc.) This is what caught my attention, and what I wish to stress: “But” and this was said very sadly, “I sometimes wonder if resistance to the Nazi’s does any good to a country. It is heroic and noble, I know, to resist as the Poles have done, but what have they gained? They have lost three and a half million of their people, not to speak of one and half million deported to Russia, and their position is not going to be too happy in peace. Big nations cannot understand the position of small nations who have to live beside powerful neighbors. To resist them may only be folly. It may only be abnormal. It is unfair to judge those who feel they are unable to do so… Everyday some member of the underground movements in Europe gives up his or her life for the course of freedom from the Nazi yoke. I wonder sometimes, are we right? The end is not so rosy.”
  • Saturday May 13, 1944
Artie and Hilda moved into their house today. We have combed this house to gather enough furniture so that they can start on their own. Finally Bodger’s carried away a vanload. New furniture is absolutely unobtainable, but young couples starting up housekeeping, or folk who have been blitzed out, can obtain from the government a book of coupons permitting them to buy a certain limited amount of utility furniture. Artie says he can not get his coupons until he has his premises, then he must fill in forms, then he will be investigated (authorities will probably call here to interview us, to find out if his new address in authentic, and so on) then he will get his coupons, after that, then he must wait until the merchant procures it, probably up to three months. What a game! So we’ve furnished him. This makes me think of Mother furnishing homes for Eric out of surpluses of her house. There is a heavy rainstorm this evening, and a big drop in the temperature. We have had summer weather for a month past, maybe all the summer we are going to get this year.
  • Wednesday May 17, 1944
Artie and Hilda came today, in time for lunch, and afterwards Artie laid the lino in the front bedroom, from which we had let him take away the large blue carpet. Hilda looks very well. They tell me they have received a card from Joan inviting them to spend the evening this coming Friday with her in Hammersmith.

Excerpts: 5-18-41 to 5-20-41 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Thursday May 18, 1944 Ascension Day 
Ascension into what? The stratosphere? The Bomber Squadrons? The Spitfires? The Mosquito’s? The Flying Fortresses?
  • Friday May 19, 1944 
Yes. That is how it is today; we are undernourished, we are filled but not fed. When this war began in nineteen thirty-nine I felt well and in the prime of middle age, but for a long time now I have definitely felt myself to be an old woman. All my spring has gone, all my resilience. Everything has become a trouble to me, and I am always tired. Every extra exertion fatigues me excessively. I regard the house with detestation; I don’t want the trouble of looking after it. I don’t want to dust, I don’t want to cook, and I don’t want to sew. In fact, I don’t want to do anything. Above all, I don’t want to have to look after anybody, but I long to be looked after. I am always hungry; not with the healthy hunger from emptiness, but with a gnawing hunger which craves a satisfaction from something, it doesn’t know what, but can’t find. I long for juicy meat, and for fruit, for real bread and real butter. I am so disgusted with all the substitute and ersatz foods. I want real fresh food, and plenty of it. I wonder, I really do, if when once again we can get good food, shall I be able to recover my vigor on it, or shan’t I? Shall I be beyond recovery? Oh, damn the war, damn the war!
  • Saturday May 20, 1944 
Oh, but I am tired! Almost all night long, airplanes have been droning overhead, our planes going out, and then returning. There must have been thousands of them. Europe must be bombed now more than we were in 1940. Civilization is committing suicide.


Excerpts: 5-22-44 to 5-27-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Monday May 22, 1944 
Just before ten this morning, as I was beginning to put my fresh bandages on, the alert sounded, and we had a short day light raid, the first day light one for some time. This mornings bombs dropped somewhere, supposing they had dropped on me.
  • Wednesday May 24, 1944 
I had several visitors this afternoon. Mrs. Fitch and Bertha, Mrs. James, and Elizabeth Coppen. We had another daylight alert from four forty-five until five –twenty and only a little gunfire. I suppose it was only a stray reconnaissance plane.
  • Saturday May 27, 1944 
I am afraid I am perilously near what is known as a complete nervous breakdown. I am so tired in body and exasperated in mind I feel I can’t endure another minute. I was in such a state of nerves this morning whilst cooking the dinner I felt I should break down and cry, and I did not dare to let myself go in case I should never stop. I am sick to death of cooking dinners, I am sick to death of the house and the housework, I am sick to death of looking after a husband and I am sick to death of the war, this infernal war. I am sick of myself, this miserable body. The weather has turned very hot suddenly and consequently my legs are bad. It is torture to walk about. It is worse I suppose because of all the heavy work I have done this week. I really do feel on the verge of collapse. Ted is too silly for words. At dinner just now he said if the war ended now he was afraid it would be too soon, because we, England, hadn’t suffered enough. France had suffered, he said, and Poland, and now very likely Germany was suffering, but we hadn’t suffered enough. This is the religious maniac talking; also the safe old man. It is true this country hasn’t suffered invasion, but it suffered the expectation of invasion and still isn’t free of the dread of the threat of it. It is Ted who doesn’t suffer, but he is an abnormal man. What about Artie? What about Cuthi? What about me in my grief for them? What about all our millions of young men fighting and dying in the air, on the sea, on the land, all over the globe and all their families grieving for them? What about our blasted cities and villages? What about our young women thrust into the factories and the services? What about the demoralization of our juveniles? What about the nightly air raids, the fires, the terror? What about the taxes, to put something down to Ted’s comprehension? This war will never be paid for, even in cash. All who survive will be impoverished for the rest of their days in mere money, let alone in their affections.


Excerpts: 5-29-44 to 6-1-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Whit Monday May 29, 1944 
It is hotter than ever. The B.B.C. reports temperatures of 96 degrees in the Straights of Dover.
  • Whit Tuesday May 30, 1944 
Still hellishly hot. The B.B.C. reports temperatures in the shade at Dover, 79 degrees. The R.A.F. is out all day and all night just the same; day flying planes return so hot that ground crews have to spray them with water before they can touch them. This heat is making me feel downright sick, as well as being bad for my legs. It makes me feel cross also. Damn rotten world.
  • Thursday June 1, 1944 
I am getting merely overcome with boredom and fatigue. After we were abed last night, about midnight, there was such a clatter in the heavens sleep was impossible. For a couple of hours without pause, planes flew over, our planes going to bomb France and Germany. Their noise was incessant; thousands of them must have passed over. Ted fell asleep, but I couldn’t sleep. In fact, I didn’t know how to endure. I had to put compulsion on myself not to start shouting and screaming. I was afraid I was going mad with the madness of the world. The sheer stupidity of the war, apart from its horror, is getting me down. Oh, it’s awful! What can one do?

Excerpts: 6-3-44 to 6-6-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


  • Saturday June 3, 1944 
I received a card from Cuthie this afternoon:

“Stalagluft 3. Lager A. 8th April 1944

Dear Folks,

Just a card to say I am o.k. I send my respects. Cuth.”

That’s all, but it is reassuring. Only last month we were told that the Germans had shot forty-seven R.A.F. officers in Stalagluft 3. Seventy-six had escaped, but had been recaptured, and forty-seven shot in attempting to resist capture. All of this happened in March. Mr. Eden gave out this information in Parliament, and we were told that the relatives of the killed had been notified, so for those who had prisoners in Stulaghuft 3 there was no need to worry if we had not heard anything. So we weren’t worrying about Cuthie and now today comes this card. He has now entered on his fifth year as a prisoner. Poor boy! Anyhow he is alive and whole, and he doesn’t have to go out on the damned bombing, thank God. I’m thankful he’s a prisoner, a safe prisoner.
  • Sunday June 4, 1944 
I have been turning through my various Mary Austen books this afternoon. I want to contact a woman’s mind. I am not interested in what any man thinks. The awful thing about life is that we are really alone in it. We can’t live for anyone else, or by anyone else. We can’t understand anyone else. I wanted to. I tried. It didn’t come off. The misunderstanding between man and woman, the blank, the total blank of comprehension between husband and wife, good people who want to understand each other. I think that is the worse thing there is in the world. You can’t really know, you can’t understand, the ones who above all others you most wish to. If I could understand Ted! If he could understand me! We never shall understand each other, our minds function in totally different worlds; only our bodies occasionally speak the same language, the language of mere brute physical love. Animal passion. How surprising! So today, out of the blue I began to remember Mary Austin. I have five of her books, that is all, but they are five treasures. Mary Austen, Mary Beard, Mary Eddy, my three American mind friends; and in Englishwomen, Dorothy Richardson, Evelyn Underhill, Laura Riding, Adela Curtiss.
  • Monday June 5, 1944 
I was up at six-thirty to get Ted’s breakfast and on the seven o’clock news we heard the announcement of the fall of Rome. Our allied armies entered the city late last night. The German’s did not stay to fight; they are fleeing to the North. So Rome has been taken without destruction, the first of the European Capitals to be freed from the Nazi aggressor and invader. Which will be next? Paris?
  • Tuesday June 6, 1944 
Our invasion of the Continent has begun. Early this morning our armies made landings on the beaches of France between Cherbourg and Le Havre.

Communiqué No. 1 issued at nine-thirty this morning:
Under the command of General Eisenhower, Allied naval forces, supported by strong air forces, began landing allied armies this morning on the northern coast of France.

Mr. Churchill in Parliament gave details of the operation this evening. He was able to announce that the operation is proceeding “in a thoroughly satisfactory manner. “The passage of the sea has been made with far less loss than had been anticipated: the resistance of the German batteries “has been greatly weakened by the bombing of the Air Force, and the superior bombardment of our ships quickly reduced their power to dimensions which did not affect the problem.”  He went on to say that the landing of the troops on a broad front has been affected, and that the allied forces have penetrated in some cases several miles inland. The landing of airborne troops took place with extremely little loss and great accuracy.

Excerpts: 6-9-44 to 6-10-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


  • Friday June 9, 1944 
I have finished Mary Austen’s Experiences Facing Death. Mary Austin was a woman of genius. Reading her I see what little tawdry talent is my own. Now I shall never write the books I have always ached to write; I am now too old, the necessary concentration and effort is beyond my powers. I am a failing old woman: I know it. I wish I were a better-educated one. If I had, had a better education, and then if I had, had a different life, then I ought to have written a few significant books. It is too late now, too late. All I can do is carry on with my reading, and to console my frustration by cherishing a deep hope that amongst my descendants there will be one to whom I have passed that talent I have, and that one may be able to do good work with it. I have been mis-cast in the play I have to play. I have played my part, dutifully, but I could have played a different part better, and with zest. There is no zest in life for me, as I have to live it. What a pity! There it is, and I can’t do anything about it at this late date in my time.
  • Saturday June 10, 1944 
Last night I was dreaming again of Tenafly, and again I was visiting in the Eason’s home. Ruth was showing me through the house. It has been re-arranged since I saw it last, and two extra stories had been added to it. It was crowded with furniture, like a warehouse, and as Ruth took me through the rooms I saw that they held all the furniture we Thompson’s had ever possessed; pieces which I had forgotten were there in the dream, for my recognition; and at last, in the attic, there stood our original round dining-table, with the marks of the hot flat-iron which Katie Connelly scarred it with still asserting themselves. This furniture was Ruth’s, not mine any longer, and I didn’t care a damn, I was only aware of feeling relief of being rid of it. It is easy to interpret this dream, I think; it is a lumber dream, and lumber of the old furniture stands for the lumber of the mind. The different pieces stand for the different hopes and theories, and ideas and beliefs, which in the course of my life I have struggled for, attained, and then discarded. This is quite obvious I think.

Excerpts: 6-13-44 to 6-14 44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


  • June 13, 1944 
We have been told that yesterday Mr. Churchill visited the front in Normandy. He crossed in a battleship, and then toured the beaches in a jeep. With him were General Saints, General Eisenhower, and Field Marshall Sir Alan Brooke. They were met and escorted by General Montgomery. My reaction to this is, what damn foolery! Churchill and his gang seem to regard the war as a game, and they watch from the grandstand. Silly, conceited old buffer! I supposed he beamed around with his cigar and his V sign. I wonder what the soldiers really think about him. Roosevelt too, these old men who talk so much.
  •  June 14, 1944 
Churchill was taken to task in the Commons today for his foolhardy unadvised trip to France. Asked, was his journey really necessary? (This is the placard stuck up in tens of thousands of our stations, trains, busses, and shops: “Is your journey really necessary?”) Churchill has acted for a long time as though he regarded himself as God. Yet if he died, the war would still go on.

Excerpts: 7-15-44 to 7-16-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Saturday July 15, 1944 
The all clear sounded about five minutes ago. We had a quiet morning, but the bombs began coming in about two o’clock; and as usual the worst of all at three twenty p.m. It went directly over this roof, and exploded about three minutes later. I don’t know where, Collier Row or Rainham Road, most likely. As these things travel on a direct-catapulted line they frequently fall repeatedly on practically the same spots. We have had several others since the three-twenty one, but no other quite so near. They make me feel very ill.
  • Sunday July 16, 1944 
The weather is better today, with the sun actually shining. They flying bombs come over steadily all day long. This morning I heard on the wireless a “Church Parade” service broadcast from a field in Normandy. General Montgomery read the lesson, which was the story of the good Samaritan in Luke: the men sang the hymns, recited the General Confession, The Creed, and the Our Father. An English Canon gave an address. It was most moving, and it was beautiful. I say and wept, but not from grief. All the while in the background could be heard distant guns, planes overhead, a church bell tolling, and birds singing. It was impressively beautiful.

Excerpts: 7-17-44 to 7-18-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Monday July 17, 1944 
It is Ted’s birthday. He is sixty-five today. Mrs. Cannon came visiting this afternoon, and gave me news from Woodford, where she has a sister living. One day last week the flying bombs hit and demolished a mental home there; one hundred imbeciles were buried, but all dug out without loss of life; another bomb hit a maternity home near-by, and several of the mothers and babies were killed. Mysterious, isn’t it? She also told me that a bomb hit a goods-train at Bethnal Green at five thirty p.m. yesterday; nobody hurt. Another bomb fell on Moorgate Street Station, and the station had to be shut.
  • Tuesday July 18, 1944 
We had a rainy cloudy morning again, but a clearance into good weather this afternoon. I have been to the library again. I took a chance on going out in mid-afternoon, because as the sky had cleared I guessed there would be no bombs sent over; I got there and back without any incident, but an alert was given about half an hour ago, and the all clear is now sounding.

Excerpts: 7-19-44 to 7-20-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Wednesday July 19, 1944 
A bomb has just fallen not far off. They have been coming over all day, also all last night, which was the very worst night we have had yet. Today we can see the reason for it, for another terrific battle opened in France yesterday. We are told of an unprecedented air bombardment, one of the most concentrated air attacks ever made. In over three hours more than twenty two hundred allied heavy, medium, and light bombers dropped between seven thousand and eight thousand tons of bombs in an area of little more than seventy square miles, and as soon as the path had been cleared fighter bombers and fighters operated in great numbers just ahead of our advancing troops to harass and shake the enemy still further. No wonder he peppers London with his flying bombs all day and all night. At different times during the “dark” hours last night we lay and listened to our bombers going out, crossing his p-planes coming in. The alerts go on and off all the time; it would be simpler to leave it “on” permanently, or until the battles wane. I am literally sick with sustained apprehension. You wait and wait to hear whether the bombs are passing over, or not, and then for the explosion, the suspense almost twists your guts, you feel as though your inside is being pulled out of you. Then the B.B.C. has the bright idea of broadcasting battlefield effects, straight from the front; they gave us an assortment of them after the one o’clock news, with running comments from reporters on the spot. War up to date, but it fills me with yet another agony. Why turn mortal combat into an after lunch entertainment? Possibly the censor is trying to encourage the British public with sounds of victory, but to me it is the dreadful sound of death and destruction and to broadcast it a barbarous vulgarity. Men will fight; yes, and men must fight, but why degrade it to the level of show?
  • Thursday July 20, 1944 
Existence is becoming well nigh intolerable. Last night was terrible. Nine bombs dropped in this vicinity, whilst scores and scores went over. They have been coming constantly all morning; two big clumps have fallen near by since eleven, probably in Ilford. Mrs. Cannon came in a little while ago and brought me a cupful of black currants, enough to make a small plate pie. She said one bomb had fallen at Liverpool Street this morning, and she was wondering about her husband, whether he got safely to work or not. The bombs are coming in from the East now, and she says the morning papers say that Hitler has opened two fresh launching sites, and that’s the reason the bombs are taking a new direction. One fell on Berry-St. Edmonds, on a train full of children evacuees.
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Excerpts: 7-21-44 to 7-22-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


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  • Friday July 21, 1944 
Last evening was quiet, but they began again at eleven thirty p.m. and kept on coming until nearly two o’clock; then we had quiet until eight fifteen this morning, and they have been coming over ever since. There is one piece of startling news today; a number of the highest German generals have rebelled against Hitler, last night they tried to assassinate him and it is rumored civil war has broken out inside Germany. Hitler broadcast to the German people about one o’clock this morning, to “reassure” them of his safety and to condemn “the usurpers”. He has put Himmler in charge of the army in Germany, and threatens to wipe out the revolt by force. So now what? The German generals know they have lost the war, but will Hitler’s fanaticism still have power to carry the people into further war and destruction?
  • Saturday July 22, 1944 
We had another very bad night. In fact, the bombs have been coming over without ceasing all day yesterday; all last night, and all today. One hundred and eighty two thousand mothers and children have been evacuated from London; one day alone forty-one thousand left; and one hundred and ten thousand school children have been evacuated, in addition. In spite of the split inside Germany the war still goes on.

Excerpts: 7-23-44 to 7-24-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Sunday July 23, 1944 
It is another bleak, cold and over cast day. We had another bad night. The all clear was sounded at eight this morning, and at twenty past a fresh alert was given, and no all clear given yet. Nor is one likely, for every half hour or so along come fresh bombs. No fresh news from inside Germany, so general conjecture is, that matters are very bad there. Not bad enough to stop the war though, not yet.
  • Monday July 24, 1944 
We had another bad night. The alert sounded before I could get undressed, and bombs began passing over almost at once; until half past one they were very frequent, after that they slowed off until four a.m., then none until six thirty a.m. Ted sleeps but I cannot.

Excerpts: 7-26-44 to 7-27-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


  • Wednesday July 26, 1944 
Last night was shockingly bad again. After a quite day, no alerts, the bombs began coming over at eleven thirty p.m., their usual night starting hour. Last night was worse than Tuesday’s a week ago. The all clear was given at eight a.m. and then at eight twenty we had a fresh alarm, and five heavies came over in a space of ten minutes. It was terribly frightening. Of course Jerry is trying to catch the people on their way to work. One morning last week a bomb fell outside Canon Street Station at twenty to nine one morning, and killed two hundred people leaving the trains. From nine this morning to three this afternoon was quiet, but an alert has been on ever since three. It is quiet now, but evidently not quiet enough for us to be given the al-clear; the fiendish things are probably falling nearer the coast, and south of the river. Happily the weather improved today, so I expect our boys have been able to shoot them down before they could reach far inland. I received a letter from Gladys this afternoon; she says many trainloads of evacuees have arrived in Penzance. No recent news of Joan, so I presume she is still all right. Artie was in for a few minutes this afternoon. He is riding a bicycle, so that’s fine.
  • Thursday July 27, 1944 
Ted has gone to see Mrs. Capes and arrange with her to do his rent collecting next Monday and Tuesday. It is a fine evening, by way of a change. Workmen were here all morning, finishing repairs, and up on the roof fixing the gutters. Councilmen here also, were repairing the window. I did a lot of work myself, sweeping, scrubbing, washing windows, consequently I feel very virtuous, extremely so. I am also extremely tired; I hope I don’t get cramps tonight. Bombs began coming over about three o’clock, and are still at it; several have fallen very close here. Towards five o’clock this morning Ted came downstairs and persuaded me to go up to bed with him for loving. It was sweet.

Excerpts: 7-30-44 to 7-31-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


  • Sunday July 30, 1944 
The weather is a bit better. The night was bad, but I slept on in the morning until eight o’clock. I breakfasted at leisure since Ted is on holiday, bathed, and then cooked my solitary meal. I spent most of the rest of the day writing to Harold. Bombs were coming on and off all day. There is news of a rumor that Rommel is dead, killed in the battle in Normandy.
  • Monday July 31, 1944 
A very bad night, bombs started coming at a quarter to midnight and no all clear given until six o’clock this morning. This is very nerve racking, and its eerie being the house alone.

Excerpts: 8-2-44 to 8-5-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Wednesday August 2, 1944
I have just been listening to a long report of Mr. Churchill’s statement in Parliament today. On the whole it was optimistic. I have noted some of the figures he gave: R.A.F. losses in the Home Command, from April First to June Thirtieth: over seven thousand, and very many more in the American Air Force. Dreadful. This is the price of victory. About the flying bombs: in the period from June 15, to June 30, five thousand three hundred and forty have been launched against us, mainly London; they have killed four thousand seven hundred and thirty five, severely wounded fourteen thousand, with many more people slightly wounded; they have totally destroyed seventeen thousand houses, badly damaged eight hundred thousand, with many more slightly damaged; and the number of people evacuated from London, mainly women and children, is nearly a million. He holds out hope of us being able to check them until we can occupy the part of France where the launching sites are; and moreover he advises all who can leave London to do so; “in an orderly manner” “because it is quite possible Hitler may launch his heavier rocket guns against this city.” God defend us!
  • Thursday August 3, 1944 
I was about to prepare myself for the night when Ted telephoned about a half hour ago to inquire if I was all right; he had heard of last night’s raids. In Oxford they have none. Last night here was terrible; the flying bombs came over in six shoals. Nothing in this immediate vicinity struck; Rainham Road and Whalebone Lane the nearest spots to be hit. In London seven hospitals were bombed and God knows what else. It was as though to crown Churchill’s speech Hitler was just showing us what he could do. It was an awful, awful night. They began again at seven o’clock this morning. All has been quiet since mid afternoon. The moon is practically at the full, and tonight is a clear night, so we may have a quieter night tonight. Last night was cloudy. There was news from France that the Americans have taken Rennes.
  • Saturday August 5, 1944 
We had heavy rain last night. We had no bombs until about five this morning, and then many very bad ones, one at four thirty on Hogg Hill towards Chigwell; and on one fifteen one on Gosseway. I thought the house was hit, for it rocked and the glass crackled, though luckily it did not break. Mrs. Cannon was in this afternoon, and she tells us that the bomb in Gorseway fell within twenty yards of the one that fell there the other Sunday. It fell directly on an Anderson shelter; everybody in it was killed. , a whole family. Many houses demolished. Ted returned about two-thirty this afternoon. He looks very well and has thoroughly enjoyed himself. This evening of course, he went off to confession. Oh dear! He enrages me but I give no sign. Supposing, I gave rein to my tongue as he does to his, what frightful degrading quarrels we should have then! I won’t quarrel. I loath quarreling. I endure, with these silly books for my only safety valve. Better to write as I do herein, I think, than write my scourging and scolding’s to my children; or worse, confide in friends or neighbors. Every marriage in the long run is unendurable, I suspect, but adult women don’t broadcast the fact. That is, unendurable to wives; husbands live their own lives regardless of marriage altogether men can always find compensations, always find fresh outside interests, it is only women who are imprisoned in marriage, whose circle is circumscribed, and whose exterior life perishes. What a curse to be a woman!


Excerpts: 8-7-44 to 8-11-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Monday August 7, 1944 
It is Bank Holiday, and a very nice day. For those people able to take a holiday the weather is perfect. We were amused when the B.B.C. informed us in the news that all day long, at Ascot cyclists went around informing the public that warning would be given if any doodle bugs approached. As those folks wouldn’t know! What would a crowd on a racecourse do anyhow supposing flying bombs approached? All they could do would be to lie on the ground. Nothing happened there. We had a few bombs in London, but not as many as usual, I expect because the day was fine. One awful cracker fell near us at seven fifteen a.m. but nothing in this immediate neighborhood since.
  • Tuesday August 8, 1944
I am resting after my morning’s chores. Laundry day today, so I had all that to attend to. I also have made a hodge podge using Sunday’s beef bone and a variety of the summer vegetables. Ted is out on his rounds of rent collecting. Our early morning bomb arrived at six this morning; I do not know yet where it his, but probably Rainham way again. It brought down more of our plaster, and crackled all the glass, though none broke thank goodness. We had another one very near at nine. The morning was very misty, so they came along pretty steadily until the sky cleared, but I haven’t heard one for the past hour. People begin to think the war may end this month; I surely hope so. The Germans are taking a licking in France, and the Russians are on their eastern borders. Our bombers go out day and night by the thousands. I don’t see how the Germans can stand it much longer.
  • Thursday August 10, 1944
It was a quiet night until around four o’clock this morning, and then between four and five about a dozen bombs fell in this neighborhood. We have had none since.  Today’s news is that General Eisenhower has moved his headquarters to France; and General Maitland Wilson moved his to Italy. This shows we are safely established on the continent; the war is at its climax. It probably will end this summer. Oh what joy then in the world!
  • Friday August 11, 1944 
I am feeling so well and happy this morning I take a fresh page. Last night I slept the night through in bed for the first time in two months, or more, ever since the flying bombs began their bombardment of London. We had alerts in the evening, the last about nine o’clock, but none at all during the night, in this neighborhood, though the B.B.C. reports there were bombs over Southern England last night, and some reached the London area. However they have begun their usual routine this morning. I had only just got downstairs at seven-twenty, when the alert sounded, and ten minutes later a bomb fell somewhere near. We Then three more, and then a rest, lasting until now. It is a beautiful day, clear and bright, so we are not apt to get many until nightfall. The news is good; our troops in France are sweeping up all around. Yesterday we took St. Mals; today we are told we have cleared Chartres of the enemy and the Americans are within seventy-five kilometers of Paris. Good. If the weather will stay favorable, as it may do now, seeing how very bad it has bee hitherto, ever since D-day, we may even finish the campaign in France this month. Then we shall pass on into Germany; the allies are determined to finish the war this time in Berlin and they will. The Germans have got to know they are licked militarily without a shadow of doubt.

Excerpts: 8-12-44 to 8-15-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary Vol. 4

  • August 12, 1944 
The flying bombs began coming over again about two o’clock yesterday, but quieted off in mid evening. I thought I would try another night in bed, as all seemed quiet, but was unlucky. I had only been in bed about five minutes when the alert sounded about eleven-fifteen p.m. I came downstairs straightaway, and a very nasty night we had of it. Dozens came over before midnight, and then slackened somewhat, until one a.m. when they began coming thickly again. One terrible crumper crashed at one-thirty a.m. These was over the golf course, but have heard no details yet. We have had a cessation of the blasted things since about nine this morning.
  • Tuesday August 14, 1944 
At twelve-thirty p.m. today the B.B.C. interrupted its program to give the news that early this morning the Allies made a successful landing on the South Coast of France, between Nice and Marseilles. French, American, and British troops took part, over eight hundred boats were used, and thousands of paratroopers were dropped from the skies.  Fierce fighting continues in Normandy. The flying bombs have been coming over all day, all last night too. Several have crashed near by since six this evening. I should say at least thirty have passed over since six, but I have lost count. The last one, about twenty minutes ago, seemed to go right over the roof, and looked to be headed straight for Chigwell. These bombs can’t affect the outcome of the war in any way at all, but I suppose Hitler can talk about them to his Germans and make them think maybe they are doing something to down us. They do not down us; they only deepen our anger against their inventions and uses. They are devilish things; they kill some of us, and destroy our houses and buildings; we suffer our individual fears from them, but as a people conquer us they never will.
  • Tuesday August 15, 1944 
At twelve-thirty p.m. today the B.B.C. interrupted its program to give the news that early this morning the Allies made a successful landing on the South Coast of France, between Nice and Marseilles. French, American, and British troops took part, over eight hundred boats were used, and thousands of paratroopers were dropped from the skies.  Fierce fighting continues in Normandy. The flying bombs have been coming over all day, all last night too. Several have crashed near by since six this evening. I should say at least thirty have passed over since six, but I have lost count. The last one, about twenty minutes ago, seemed to go right over the roof, and looked to be headed straight for Chigwell. These bombs can’t affect the outcome of the war in any way at all, but I suppose Hitler can talk about them to his Germans and make them think maybe they are doing something to down us. They do not down us; they only deepen our anger against their inventions and uses. They are devilish things; they kill some of us, and destroy our houses and buildings; we suffer our individual fears from them, but as a people conquer us they never will.

8-19-44 to 8-21-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • August 19, 1944 
Bombs began coming over at three-fifteen this morning, and kept on sporadically until half past seven. I am most devastatingly tired; cooking the dinner I had all I could do not to cry, from sheer tiredness. I am past this work. I don’t want to keep house any longer. I shall have to; there is no retirement possible for me. About four o’clock this afternoon Artie telephoned to say he had a son: Frederick Harold Victor; weight nine pounds, Hilda is feeling fine. The baby was born between the alert we had at two-thirty p.m. and the all clear at three-fifty p.m. “Soon after the bomb crashed” said Artie.
  • Sunday August 20, 1944 
It is a rainy day. We had a few bombs in the night and some again throughout the morning. One fell very near about half past eight. It made me wonder how the people in church were feeling. Ted is playing all the services again today. About five o’clock Artie telephoned and asked us to get a taxi and go and see the baby, but we declined. His father explained that since he was playing Benediction at six-thirty, we had planned to have our evening meal after church, instead of before, and that I had some cooking to do, and it would be too late to go out afterwards. Artie said anytime up until ten o’clock would not be too late, but Ted replied that I should be too tired, after cooking and dishes and so on. “Some other time,” he said: “Some other time.” When he came into me from the telephone he said: “It won’t hurt these young folk to be left alone a bit. Let them find out they cannot indefinitely ignore people, and then expect them to come at their calling. They’ve made it so obvious they want to be alone, well, let them be alone.” I said: “I expect Artie has been looking for you all day.” “Oh, do you think so?” said Ted. “Of course. Your first grandchild in England, he’d naturally think you would be in a deuce of a hurry to see it.” “Heavens! What an idea!” “Well a baby is no novelty to us.” We laughed together. “I should say not,” said Ted, and then remarked that this was the nineteenth grandchild, born on the nineteenth day of the month, an idea that occurred to me yesterday.
  • Monday August 21, 1944 
It is Gladys’s birthday. She must be fifty-five today. Last night Ted coaxed me to bed at ten o’clock, and we were natural and happy together for an hour or so, and then fell asleep. (There goes a warning! Damn the bombs.) I was wakened after awhile by an alert, and came downstairs at once. The clock said two-thirty a.m. In a few minutes several bombs passed over and dropped in the distance, and then a big fellow crumped very near by. It sounded as close as Romford Station, but must have been further off then that. It shook the whole house though, and took my breath away. After that had fallen everything was quiet until about five o’clock, when they began to come again, until about eight then quietness until now. On Saturday we were told that the government had evacuated about ten thousand hospital patients from London, in special ambulance trains, taking them to the north for safety, even as far as Scotland. This seems rather ominous, for with the great battles now raging in France, and the Germans being steadily defeated there, we had hoped that the menace of these flying bombs would soon be eliminated. Once we can get the Pas de Calais area there will be an end of them. Ted says it is because the Government fears the worse and greater rocket bombs, which the Germans are threatening us with; they may never launch them, but then, they might, so the Government is playing for safety. (Explosions now, sound to be in Chadwell Heath.)





8-22-44 to 8-24-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Tuesday August 22, 1944
Ted has gone off to a committee meeting of his “knights.” It is still rainy weather, with very low cloud, so we are getting many flying bombs. They came continuously all day yesterday, and throughout most of last night. We have not had so many through this day as yesterday, but still too many. They are most wearing; they twist my insides with fear. The beastly noise they make is alone enough to frighten you. There is a “secrecy silence” being maintained on the war news. We are told the Americans have crossed the Seine both on the east and on the west of Paris, and that the roads on the east from Paris are blocked with German transport. We are told that the Parisians’ are rising, have risen, and there is street fighting going on in Paris, that the Boulevards are crowded, and the churches full. There is a rumor that we are at Versailles. Nothing is officially known. The guess is that we are surrounding and attacking Paris, and that we shall be given no authentic news until the allies can announce the fall of Paris. Yesterday General Montgomery made a broadcast to all officers and men, telling them the Battle of Normandy was won, the Battle of Germany was about to begin, and the end of the war was in sight; “so let us finish quickly” he said. Yes, let us.
  • Wednesday August 23, 1944 
It is nine-thirty a.m. and an all clear has just sounded, the third since seven o’clock this morning. It was another nasty night. The weather today is still deeply overcast, so I expect we shall receive bombs all day long. What weariness! I am in a state of exasperation bordering on tears. Just as Ted was retiring last night he told me he had arranged for the sweep to come today and clean the parlor chimney; he did not know what time, and perhaps he wouldn’t come at all, but some other day, for he told Mrs. Frosdick it didn’t matter when Frosdick came, because I was always at home. Now this makes me cross. Having the sweep is a nasty dirty job, and one certainly needs time to prepare for him, and to clean up after him. Moreover I hate it when I don’t know exactly when to expect anyone, uncertainty ties one so. I look at the parlor and groan. It is chock-a-block with furniture, books, pictures, ornaments, a nasty ugly overcrowded Victorian room I can’t cope with it. It is a room I never use. I never sit in it, and only go into it when I need to telephone. It is Ted’s room. I haven’t time to empty it, even if there was anywhere to empty it to, and the job of cleaning it after the sweep departs appalls me. Ted wants the chimney swept, so there you are! Not even a time given to me! So here I must hang about, doing nothing, waiting for the sweep. Oh, by heavens I am sick of the house and of housekeeping! I am so sick of Romford. I hear old Ernest next door hacking and coughing and spitting in his garden, and I could scream. I hear Miss Owlett chatting, chatting, and I think, Oh what a twittering old maid! Oh God, deliver me from the neighbors! I hate neighbors. I hate living on a street. I hate a husband coming in for a mid day dinner. Gosh, now I hate the Sweep! I want to walk away from everything and everybody.
  • Thursday August 24, 1944 
We had bombs again throughout the night and early this morning. The Germans are leaving France as soon as they can go, so we suppose Hitler is going to bomb us up until the last minute, until we have driven him out of the coastal regions. Late last night we received further good news; the French have captured Marseilles, and Romania is out of the war. The young King Michael has broadcast a proclamation from Bucharest, which in effect says that the Russian Peace terms will be accepted, a new “National Government will be formed, and Rumania will be an ally of the United Nations. It is another jackal looking to pick the bones of Europe.

8-23-44 to 8-25-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


  • Wednesday August 23, 1944 
We were thrilled at mid-day by news of the liberation of Paris. Ever since Saturday there has been news that the Parisians were fighting in the streets, and today we are told that the city has fallen to the people of Paris and fifty thousand men of French Forces of the Interior who entered the city yesterday. Casualties are not told, nor what was the severity of the fighting, but we gather whatever Germans can are in full retreat to the east. Anyhow, the Germans have pulled out of Paris, and Paris is once more free again.
  • Thursday August 24, 1944 
We had bombs again throughout the night and early this morning. The Germans are leaving France as soon as they can go, so we suppose Hitler is going to bomb us up until the last minute, until we have driven him out of the coastal regions. Late last night we received further good news; the French have captured Marseilles, and Romania is out of the war. The young King Michael has broadcast a proclamation from Bucharest, which in effect says that the Russian Peace terms will be accepted, a new “National Government will be formed, and Rumania will be an ally of the United Nations. It is another jackal looking to pick the bones of Europe.
  • Friday August 25, 1944 
Whilst Pat and Wilf were here we had a bad hour of raid; several flying bombs came over and dropped quite close, one very much so, it was very nasty. However the all clear was given at ten o’clock, and the next warning didn’t sound until seven-fifteen this morning, so we had a free night, which was heavenly.

(History is never quite as real as when it is told by those who lived it.)









    10-26-44 to 10-28-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


    • Thursday October 26, 1944 
    If the war doesn’t end soon I shall die of sheer fatigue. We had raids last night between seven and ten p.m. These make me feel so ill. We had none in the night, but a rocket fell nearby at eight-fifteen a.m. and another at eight-forty. We had another at twelve-thirty p.m. and another at one-fifty p.m. It has been all-quiet since. The afternoon is closing in misty, so probably we shall get more as soon as darkness settles. Early morning was misty, almost foggy, too. Apparently October twenty-fifth is reckoned by the government as the first day of winter, for it provided a winter timetable for transport, and for shop and office hours, to start as yesterday the twenty-fifth. I feel very sleepy and long for a long night of deep solid undisturbed sleep.
    • Friday October 27, 1944 
    I am saying damn the war, and damn the war and damn the war. We had no flying bombs during the night but are being peppered with the rocket bombs. One fell at six-thirty last night, and another about eleven p.m. none during the night, but one fell at eight-fifteen this morning, another at ten-thirty and another at eleven-ten, another at eleven-fifty and the last at twelve-twenty p.m. These are terrible things. They drop without warning, and do an awful lot of damage. The one at eleven o’clock last night fell in Ilford, at the corner of The Drive and Cranbrook Road. A whole block is down, and it was a big old property that stood there. Casualties are not known yet, but there must be many. Ted laughs and jokes about the bombs, and says; “ see, we are alright” but I can’t take them so lightly. Somebody dies every time, and sometime it might be us, we have no guarantee the bombs will never fall in this road. They are horrible. They do fill me with fear. I can’t help it. I am afraid.
    • Saturday October 28, 1944 
    Last night we had a rocket at seven-fifteen and another at eleven-twenty and another at eleven –fifty p.m. This last upset me so much I came downstairs and spent the night on the sofa. If one drops again tonight before midnight, I shall come down again. We had two more this morning and another this evening. I do not know what the latest news is, as Mr. Bean did not bring back the radio this afternoon, as promised.

    10-30-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries

    • Monday, October 30,1944 
    Sure enough, as I anticipated, a rocket bomb fell around midnight, but somewhat farther off then usual. Of course, close enough to wake us from sleep. Another louder and closer, much closer, fell about four-thirty a.m. but since then there have been no more. When I went up to bed Ted lay with his face to the wall. I think he was asleep, at any rate he did not speak. However, soon after, quietness descended, after the first bomb fell, I felt his hands upon me, and he burning. I smiled to myself. Heresy or bombs, neither, it seems, can quench a mans desire. So we loved and fell asleep. He rose as usual this morning and went out to mass. When Dr. Keighley was attending me the other week I had a very private conversation with him one day. I asked him how long the sexual life went on. He answered; until eighty, he said, or even longer. During this past summer Ted had loved me rather more than usual, and I wondered whether that had been too much for me, and that was why my back hurt so. The doctor said no, that wouldn’t hurt me. The only thing was if it worried me mentally, that might do me harm, psychologically, but it would never hurt me physically. Was I mentally disturbed? He asked. I said no. All right then, he said, and that’s good, because it is never wise to arbitrarily check the sexual life, doing so only set up other troubles. I said I was sixty and had been married nearly forty years. I said I was tired of the married life. Yes, said Keighley, married life is hard on women. He asked how old Ted was. I told him, sixty-five. He pursed his lips, and he smiled. Men differ, you know, he said; but the sexual need never dies. It can go until eighty or even after, as long as a man lives, pretty nearly. “Then I must put up with it?” “I’m afraid so. Do you dislike it very much?” “No, as a matter of fact I think it does one good, keeps one young, perhaps. At least as long as the body juices are functioning one knows one isn’t becoming a mummy.”



    11-1-44 to 11-5-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


    • Wednesday November 1, 1944 
    I was very agreeably surprised yesterday afternoon by the arrival of Hilda and the baby. This is the first time she has been to this house since leaving it last May. We telephoned Artie and told him to come to tea. They stayed until nearly eight o’clock, and everything was happy and pleasant. The baby is thriving and is a beautiful child, and Hilda was very agreeable, actually smiling for once. Two rocket bombs fell whilst they were here, but not too close. The baby was lovely. I should like her to bring it here occasionally, if only she would. I have asked them to come next Monday, when Joan will be here. They have agreed to come, but will let me know later whether they will come to lunch or to tea.

    In the course of a speech in the House yesterday Mr. Churchill said that militarily we couldn’t look for the end of the war before Christmas, or perhaps before Easter. Of course someday the war will end, but I begin to be afraid I may end before the war does. Au-Revoir.
    • Friday November 3, 1944 
    We had an awful explosion in the night at one a.m. with a second, not quite so bad, following at two a.m. I have heard this afternoon that the one a.m. rocket fell in the Elan Park Rainham neighborhood. At ten-thirty this morning the first daylight one fell; then they came along at eleven a.m.; twelve-fifteen p.m., twelve-thirty, twelve forty-five, one-twenty and two-twenty p.m. We have had none since then. It is awful.
    • Saturday November 4, 1944 
    I went out shopping this morning, which was unusual for me on a Saturday morning; but I simply could not stay in the house and cook. I loathe the house and the housekeeping. Just as I reached our gate on my return a most terrific explosion went off. The air quivered; the whole street seemed to shake. It was exactly eleven o’clock. Two minutes later a second occurred, not quite so bad. I don’t know where the bomb or bombs fell, but evidently not in Romford. When Ted came in for lunch it was still not known where the devilish thing fell, perhaps we shall know by tonight. It might be anywhere within a radius of six to ten miles. This infernal war. I’m restless, terribly restless. I want to go roaming. Where can we roam? The war is everywhere. Damn the war.
    • Sunday November 5, 1944 Guy Fawkes’s Day. 
    A gale was blowing all day. This has been a dreadful day with the flying missiles. A rocket nearly shook the house down about midnight, but after that we had quietness until seven-fifty this morning, when the first bomb of the day fell and then followed by many others. At seven-thirty this evening an alert sounded for doodles, and a second alert was given at seven fifty-five. The all clear came at eight-thirty. Since then all has been quiet. The rockets were all near by, but the doodles were further off. I spent most of the clear time writing letters to Eddie and to Chic.

    11-6-44 to 11-9-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


    • Monday November 6, 1944
    It was a foggy morning with fog signals going off intermittently. Joan arrived about eight-fifteen, for breakfast. Hilda arrived with the baby just before one o’clock and Artie very soon after. In the afternoon Miss Cannon came and also Miss Coppen. A rocket went off with a great bang exactly at three o’clock. Joan says they had ten in one day in Hammersmith, and on that same day a warden told her there had been seventeen in London. The theory as to why they are never publicly mentioned, or written of in the press, is, that silence prevents Hitler knowing whether he has got the range or not; the idea being that he may think they drop in the sea! Also if he fires off twenty a day, perhaps ten fall on Germany itself, five in the sea, and only five reach England; so hush hush! Don’t say a word. Isn’t it silly? Of course he knows they reach us. Joan says that in the city there is great dissatisfaction with the government over them because we do nothing, and say nothing. Naturally. Our Ministry of Information certainly treats the public as one big ass. How silly men are!
    • Tuesday November 7, 1944 
    It is Election Day in the States today. Also this is the twenty-seventh anniversary of the set-up of Soviet Russia. I suppose the Russian Revolution was the greatest historical event of my lifetime. After all a war is nothing new. This war is only bigger than other wars. The overthrow of Czarist Russia, the Russian Revolution, was a unique event. True, there had been the French Revolution, but great as that was; it was but an infant affair in comparison with the dreadful and terrific Russian Revolution. I’m afraid of Russia. It is Russia who is winning this war, first by her arms, and next by her ideas. I expect if I could live long enough I should see all Europe sovietized and communized. I should hate it. Dr. Alexis Carrel is dead, in Paris.

    • Wednesday November 8, 1944 
    President Roosevelt has been re-elected for a fourth term. The commentator says this gives Roosevelt the green light, the go-ahead sign. Yes, I am glad. I think Roosevelt ought to be in office to help wind up the war. We have had no disturbance since half an hour of flying bombs, Monday evening. The Germans have been driven from their last posts on Walcheren. This means the approaches to the Port of Antwerp are now free for us. Clearance engineers and special mine sweepers are already on the job. Vienna has been bombed for the fifth night running. The Germans are giving ground in East Prussia.  Oh God let the war end soon! Our planes are very active this morning; they are passing and re- passing incessantly, ever since early dawn, and it is a foggy day too. I think a big battle must be in progress somewhere.

    • Thursday November 9, 1944 
    For once the sun is shining and the sky a clear blue. Planes were going out ever since early morning, long before we got up. Today I am in a state of exasperation hard to bear. Ted gave me a beautiful lecture over breakfast, all because I asked him to change my Boot’s book this morning and he said he hadn’t had time. Then he launched forth about the rottenness of today’s literature, by which he meant novels. This is what Ted does with the books he brings home for me; before he will even let me touch them he opens them and reads pages on which cursory reading he passes judgment. If he finds one word about sex, love, or the body, the book is condemned. It is filthy he says, or degenerate, or immoral. To suit Ted all novels must be innocuous as the Dickens’s, where men and women only have faces, and live strictly by conscience and the Victorian Sunday. This morning I got his usual harangue, complete with his condemnation of modern women, and me in particular. I listened in silence. I have heard this song before. Inside I was groaning. This man is such an awful fool. In speech, in what may be said or written, Ted is as prudish as the Victorian spinster; but in action, in the bed, when he feels like it, he is as brutish and as sensual as the Victorian paterfamilias. Nothing may be uttered but everything may be done and must be done when the man is in the mood. I have never known Ted to desist when his inclination urged him, never. Last Sunday night I nearly went mad with him. Sunday had been a hectic day with bombs and raids and warnings all day long. I was a nervous wreck. In addition I was crampy. Ted wanted to love; I hadn’t an atom of feeling, except pain, and the expectation of pain. What did that matter to him? He turned me on my back and clambered upon me. Then I did get a cramp, a severe one in my left thigh, and he had to let me go. I walked the floor. I was in and out of bed several times with the damned cramp returning, and all the time I was in dread of another warning! Finally I became easy, but was I allowed to lie in peace and sleep? Perish the thought! Not until he had taken his satisfaction. I lay in bed full of hatred and loathing, I felt sick to death of him and of marriage. I am weary of him. I am dead weary.

    11-10-44 to 11-13-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


    • Friday November 10, 1944
    Last night we had two alerts for flying bombs. I counted at least seven explosions in the last attack. I was so frightened, and so ill. Planes are buzzing about right now, very low. I hate the sound of them, even our own. What an invention! Now man destroys himself with his own cleverness. How can one control fear? I am sure I don’t know. It is a physical malady, which assails you. With me it has nothing to do with my mind. I am not afraid of the Germans. I am not afraid of death, as death, yet I can sit and shake like a frightened dog. I simply can’t control my nerves. My animal body is aware of danger and that awareness pervades the whole of me. I hate the Germans and I loathe the fiendish stupidity of war. My mind remains in control of my reason. I do not scream or cry or become hysterical. Actually I try to divert my mind with a book. My body misbehaves. My stomach retch’s, sometimes I vomit. My limbs tremble and my hands shake. Sometimes when I am very frightened, pulses beat in my neck, my jaws quiver, my head trembles like a palsy. Nor can I do anything to stop these reactions; I just have to suffer them.
    • Sunday November 12, 1944
    Last night we were awakened about four-thirty a.m. by a most awful explosion. It must have been fairly close, though so far today we have not heard where. It shook the house, shook the bed. It also shook my heart. I can easily understand how people can die of shock or of sheer fright. In the dead of the night these shocks are truly awful. It took me a long while to get to sleep again.
    • Monday November 13, 1944
    The newspapers are full of comments on the supposed Hitler broadcast to the German people, read for him by Himmler. November Ninth was the first time in twenty-one years that Hitler has failed to broadcast to his Nazi’s on the anniversary of their Munich Beer Cellar Putsch. Why didn’t he speak on this occasion? The Germans have been told he was too busy; a very inadequate excuse, for since he found time to compose his speech (if it was his) surely he could have taken twenty minutes to broadcast it from his headquarters? Yet he didn’t. So the world is asking: Is Hitler sick? Or is he mad? Or is he dead? The last time his voice was heard was in July, at the time of his attempted assassination, when he went to the microphone to assure his dear Nazi’s that Providence had preserved his precious life.

    11-14-44 to 11-16-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


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    • Tuesday November 14, 1944 
    This is one of the dreariest days for weather that I ever remember. Darkness covers the face of the earth. Not fog, darkness. I went to the cleaners to collect my dresses. Outside the cleaners a wedding-taxi all tied up with white ribbons was held up for traffic. All of us in the shop exclaimed Poor Bride! What an omen! This makes me think of the day in nineteen forty when France fell. An extraordinary and unaccountable thick darkness covered the world here about that day. If only this were an omen of the fall of Germany! Oh, how thankful we should be! One woman in the cleaners said: “Maybe Hitler’s dead. The Express says he is likely to be killed any day now by his own Germans.” “Yes,” said another, “I expect there are crowds of folk in Germany who would kill him if they could.”
    • Wednesday November 15, 1944 
    We suffered a dreadful night. Very soon after midnight the alert sounded. I came downstairs at once and the all clear did not go until one-fifty a.m. I lost count of how many bombs flew over, seven or eight, perhaps more, some of them very close indeed. After I had fallen asleep we were awakened again abut two-thirty a.m. by the explosion of a rocket, two hours later came another, then at five twenty-five a.m. came a most terrific crash, shaking the bed and the house and crashing in the dining room window. Ten minutes later an alert was sounded, and before I could get out of bed a flying bomb passed before our window, sailing over the back gardens down this street. It was most terrifying. I grabbed my petticoat and gown and hurried downstairs. Four others passed, practically in the same track, but the all clear came fairly quickly, being given at five-fifty five a.m. I went back to bed, very shaken. A text flashed into my mind: “ His mind is stayed on peace whose mind is stayed on Thee, because he trusteth in Thee.” God. Yes it is God to whom I instinctively turn, God and no one else.
    • Thursday November 16, 1944 
    I dream a dream. I live in a nightmare. Night was quiet until five-thirty this morning, when a crashing rocket fell. Then it was quiet again until seven-thirty, when an even more deafening one fell nearer. We shook in our bed, and more windows cracked. I got up to prepare breakfast. Ted came into the room and bumped the door; more glass fell out of the window. I began to cry. I felt I could not stand any more of this life. I suppose why my thoughts are dwelling so persistently on the Novembers of my childhood is a way my mind is protecting itself. Memory is retreating into the far past, even when Novembers could hold happiness for a child when life was safe, and when the whole personality floated serene in the irresponsibility of protected childhood. I thought I could write it all down but that thought was a dream; I can’t write, my mind can only wander. It is impossible to concentrate on anything.

    11-17-44 to 11-19-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


    • Friday November 17, 1944 
    I have been in a passion of fury for hours. Two rockets have just fallen on each other’s heels, and a previous one fell at ten-fifty a.m. All through the night they fell, approximately every half hour until six a.m. how many poor unfortunates have been bombed into the streets in this, God knows. I am sitting here in the little dining room with the black out curtains still drawn, to keep out the weather. Rain is beating in at the broken window, and the curtains are soggy with it, but at least the curtains are holding it, so far.  All this week the members in Parliament have been debating White Papers on the demobilization of the services and the demobilization of the workers as soon as the war with Germany is ended. It isn’t ended! Yesterday they even passed a regulation permitting the manufacture of ice cream, as from today. Our politicians winning the war! Last weekend Mr. Churchill and Mr. Eden visited Paris, taking their wives with them, and Churchill his daughter Mary. They collected plaudits and all had a good time. Churchill is enjoying the war. He appears everywhere with his big cigar and his big paunch, a grinning Uncle Toby. His son, though in uniform, is carefully kept out of the firing line, another nice fat baby. Oh, I fume. This intolerable war drags on and on, whilst the old men keep on talking. When there is no more money for the top dogs to be made out of it, then it will stop I suppose. Are armaments made for nothing? I don’t think so.
    • Saturday November 18, 1944 
    Reta was at the door. She had been coming up the street as the bombs fell. This mornings bombs fell in Rush Green. Reta stayed until nearly nine o’clock. Another bomb fell at seven-fifty and another worse one just now at ten thirty-five p.m. A moment before it fell our light went out and at the explosion still more of our windows crashed in. Ted is starting the night in bed, but I cannot go to bed tonight. From the back windows I can see a fire on the horizon; looks at the back of the station a big blaze. I shall spend the night down here on the sofa.
    • Sunday November 19, 1944 
    We suffered an awful night. We hardly slept at all. Cars were driving up and down for hours, and many trains whistling and passing on the line. A bad bomb fell around half past one, but no others followed. Our first daylight one fell at seven-fifty this morning. At breakfast Ted brought in the news that the ten-thirty bomb last night fell on Rush Green, and that’s where the fire was. Casualties are not known yet, but believed to be many. Wardens are still digging out the dead from the Collier Row incident. This has been a terrible week.
    • Monday November 20, 1944 
    I have written another letter to Eddie. Life is now more precarious than ever, I feel I must communicate with my children whilst I know I can. Last night I heard of the sudden death of Mr. Dumaresq. This was not due to bombs, but natural causes. He was taken ill at South Street last Tuesday, brought home in a taxi, and was dead by the time the taxi reached his house. He was buried on Saturday in Romford Cemetery. What a tragic way to die, alone in a taxicab. I received today a card from Cuth written July 2, 1944.

    11-25-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary


    • Saturday November 25, 1944 
    About twelve-thirty Reta Pullan came, and again a bomb was falling somewhere as she came up the path to our door. “I seem to be a Jonah,” she said. She came to tell us she received a card and a letter from Cuth this week, dates of July 2, and July 11 in these he expected to be home in a month. Poor boy! She did not stay to lunch. Miss Coppen told us the noon time bomb fell in the Thames, near Woolwich. Maurice was on the Woolwich Ferry and felt and saw it fall. It sunk a boat a little ahead of the ferryboat and then struck the riverbank on the Essex side. He said women and children on the ferry screamed “something awful.” He also said that there was nothing you could do about these rockets, there was simply no time at all for warnings or to take shelter; if you were hit, well, that was all about it.

    11-26-44 to 12-2-44 World War ll London Blitz Diary

    • Sunday November 26, 1944 
    A rocket fell early this morning on Longbridge Road, Barking; fifteen houses were down, casualties not yet known. Worse yesterday, for one fell on Woolworths’s store in New Cross, when it was filled with Saturday shoppers, mostly mothers and children, hundreds killed. Last night I found myself reciting the Hail Mary! Over and over.
    • Saturday December 2, 1944 
    We had no rockets during the night, though seven fell in this neighborhood yesterday. The one o’clock bomb fell at Lyndhurst Drive, Harrow Drive, and Osborne Road, rather near to Arties place. He told his father Hilda was extremely upset, and the baby too had a screaming fit. Just after eleven this morning another one fell near here. It was a most terrific crack and shook me pretty considerably. It must have been in this town somewhere.

    12-14-44 to 12-21-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries

    • Thursday December 14, 1944
    Well what ever my mental resolutions may be my body know I’m an old woman. What I am up against is the inescapable fact of old age. Today I am so tired I hardly know how to hang together. Yesterday I cleaned the top floor, this morning I’ve been out to the library, and now I’m groaning with the pain in my knees. Maybe its rheumatism; but no maybe about it, it's pain. I look affright. Yesterday I had a session with Lillian Young. She set my hair in the newest style; that is, a waved roll across the front and top of the head, than parting down the entire back of the head, the hair combed east and west from the part, meeting a comb back from the face and neck, and rolled into two long side rolls, tapering together into the nape of the neck. Very sophisticated but damned uncomfortable. It looked smart, according to the mode, but I couldn’t stand the feel of it; consequently I have combed it all out this morning and re-combed it down, in my usual style, but the result is rather wild. So yesterday’s money was wasted. I don’t intend to ever have my hair cut again.
    • Sunday December 17, 1944 
    The war news is bad, especially the news from Greece. I have not noted this before, but Civil War has been going on in Greece these past two weeks, and our troops firing on the “rebels”. It is a shameful story. I will leave it for the history books.
    • Thursday December 21, 1944 
    True women, in love or out of love, wish to live for themselves, and the possession and domination of them by their husbands is what they most resent in the world. The assumption by the husband is that he owns the wife, naturally, is what drives women into hatred and madness. Why should a woman “love” to keep a house, wash clothes, cook food, shop, sweep, etc. for a man, because she has chosen to marry him? If poverty can kill love so can housekeeping. When a man gets a wife he gets comfort, but when a woman gets a husband she gets work, unremitting, unending work. There is no forty-eight hour week in housekeeping. I am so tired of housekeeping and so bored with it, I would like not to have a house at all, and as to getting meals I am sick to death of that.

    12-23-44 to 12-29-44 World War ll London Blitz Diaries


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    • Friday December 23, 1944
    We received today a card from Cuthie, dated the Twentieth of October. It reads:
    Dear Folks, Just a card to wish you a good Christmas and New Year. I would not be surprised to get home before then but I send this in case I shall still be here. (Then there are three lines blacked out. When we can decipher again, he goes on) I am now reading “Dombey and Son” and have just finished “Barnaby Rudge.”
    Cuth

    That’s all. The poor prisoner boys are still in prison.
    • Monday December 25, 1944 Christmas Day
    This is the first Christmas Day in many years that I have got through without a fit of the weeps. Artie and Hilda made a short call around noon. They had the baby with them, in arms; they had all been to mass. The baby is a lovely infant. I had not seen him since early November so I could see how he had thrived. He really is a beautiful baby. Hilda was pleasant, Artie in uniform, to celebrate the day, he said. I had been feeling badly these last few days because Artie didn’t come to see me; but he did remember me today, so I feel much happier about him. No rockets or doodles.
    • Tuesday December 26, 1944 Boxing Day
    I was surprised at midday to hear on the news that Mr. Churchill and Mr. Eden are in Athens. They flew there yesterday. They are convening a conference, with all parties, to try and settle the troubles, the Archbishop to preside.
    • Saturday December 29, 1944
    It is three-thirty p.m. and the B.B.C. has just announced that on the advice of Mr. Churchill the King of Greece has agreed to permit Regency in Greece, and has signified his sanction by cable to the Archbishop of Athens, Damashinos, whom he has appointed as Regent. So yet another King has stepped down, perhaps only temporarily, perhaps permanently.

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    • January 1, 1945
    So now we’re in 1945. Shall we see peace before the year is out?
    No peace in this house. Just now at dinnertime I had words with Ted. Suddenly he was so exasperating I flared out at him. It is a bad beginning for the New Year. He is so autocratic and over bearing, well, patience gives out. The match to the tinder today was his taking up the subject of the Capes’s. Both Mr. and Mrs. Cape came calling yesterday evening, and they had done the same on Christmas Eve. Ted began: “Don’t encourage the Cape’s around here evenings. I don’t want to see them all the time. They are vey nice people, but I don’t want them around here, see? Don’t encourage them to talk. When they come to an end of a topic, say nothing, don’t encourage them to start off on another.” 
    • Wednesday January 3, 1945
    We had nine rockets yesterday, four today, and this evening two doodle-bug raids; the first alert came at seven-ten, and the bombs flying over almost immediately; one went immediately over this housetop and traveled in the direction of Collier Row. The second alert sounded at eight-ten, just one hour later; we counted four passing, but heard none of them fall, so probably they went all the way to London. Ted went outside to look at them, but I stayed within to be sick. I get angrier and angrier about this war. What is it all for? The stupidity of man, the malicious stupidity of man. 
    • Friday January 5, 1945
    We had ten rockets yesterday and two already this morning. In this week “Listener” there is a photograph showing Mr. Churchill with Archbishop Damaskinos and Greek representatives in Athens. Except for the Archbishop the Greeks are in ordinary civilian morning business clothes: Churchill and his aides are in soldier uniforms. The Archbishop is an anachronism. He is swathed in black draperies from his neck to his toes, and on his head is a tall pillow-box black hat from which hang black veils down his back. Around his neck is a chain from which a large pendant hangs just about his navel, and in his hand is a long black staff, and his face is covered with a large square white beard. In that group of modern men he looks preposterous. He is preposterous. He is the complete symbol of the dead and the vanished past yet he is the man now made Regent of Greece. Probably inside his head he has a modern mans brains. Who knows?  The picture shouts his futility. He is not even impressive to look at; he is merely a silly antique. What can he do for Greece? It is not his ideas, or the ideas of any priest, which will have validity, for our world of today.